Think twice.

I went to sleep pissed off and woke up pissed off.

Last night, Joe fell asleep before I did and therefore when I tried to go to bed, he wouldn't let me sleep by him, so I had to go lay down by myself. Like I said, I went to sleep pissed off.

Then, before I woke up, I had this strange dream. I can't quite remember the order of events but all I can say is that in this dream, Joe had admitted to cheating on me. He spoke about it a little too easily. He described spending time with her, her personality, everything. It was the idea of him being close with another person, just like the way he is with me... That's what really got to me. If he just had meaningless sex with some bitch, that would have been almost preferable.

Needless to say, I woke up pretty bitter. Joe was on his way out to school, so he came over and said he was sorry for pushing me away the night before, and that it was because he was really tired and didn't feel like moving. He saw the pissed off look on my face and I could tell he felt bad. Then I realized that I got my period so I got bitchy and sauntered off to the bathroom. Poor guy went to school thinking I'm still pissed at him.

So, today I am going to take a shower, go get my paycheck, clean up the apartment, and try to get into a better mood before he gets back. I might have to get some chocolate, but that's OK. If I ever had a reason to mindlessly eat chocolate, this would be it. :)